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MACARIA

by Jotunn

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I'VE FELT THE EDGE OF THE KNIFE. PIERCING SKIN IT GOES DEEP WITHIN. VERTEBRAE IS SLOWLY EXPOSED. THE INFECTION IS TAKING HOLD. THIS HUMAN BODY CAN'T SURVIVE FROM BEING SKINNED & STRIPPED ALIVE PRAY FOR SOMETHING AS SWEET AS PAIN THIS TORTURE INTOXICATING. THIS DISMANTLED INFECTED SHELL IS EMBRACED BY MY MISERY. UNANSWERED PRAYERS OF THIS ANGUISH. GOD SMILES DOWN WITH ILL INTENT. AS I REJECT THE BLINDING LIGHT. MY ENTRY DENIED INTO HELL. GATES TO HEAVEN WERE WELDED SHUT. DEATH REFUSED TO REACH FOR MY HAND.
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I'VE HID FROM THIS WORLD I'VE FEARED FOR TOO LONG IF GOD IS A WOMAN THEN I AM DIVINE THIS FLESH IS NOW OVER I SHALL BEGIN ANEW TIMES AND LIVES HAVE CHANGED AND I AM NO EXCEPTION AND THIS TIME I WILL MAKE SURE I GET IT RIGHT WHEN THE WORLD TURNED COLD IT WAS ALWAYS FOLLOWED BY SPRING IT TRIED TO KILL ME BUT I HAVE FOUND MY STRENGTH THE STARS HAVE ALIGNED THE PLANETS BECKON ME ITS TIME TO COME FORTH AND TAKE MY RIGHTFUL PLACE PUSHING FORWARD COSMIC REBIRTH SOUL AND BODY CAUSTIC RETURN I SHALL NOT SUFFER AT THE HANDS OF ANY MAN THOSE WOULD STAND BEFORE ME SHALL SURELY MEET THEIR END MAKE PEACE WITH YOUR GOD FOR I AM NOW REBORN
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STAND UP TAKE UP YOUR ARMS STAND BY OUR TIME IS SOON BY THE SWORD AND THE FLAME YOU WILL RUE YOUR HATEFUL WAYS MY ANGER IS LIKE AN ARROW PIERCING THROUGH YOUR EMPTY SKULL I DID NOT WANT A WAR BUT YOU LEFT ME WITH NO CHOICE SAY YOUR PRAYERS, SAY GOODBYE TAKE MY LIFE FROM YOUR COLD, DEAD HANDS DIE FILTH BIGOT SCUM CURSED WASTE OF LIFE COUNTDOWN TO YOUR DEMISE HATRED IS YOUR WEAKNESS COURAGE IS MINE TO OWN VENGEANCE IS COMING SOON I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU YOU AREN'T THE FIRST, YOU WON'T BE THE LAST MY LIFE IS STAINED IN VICTORY
4.
I AM HERE I WILL STAY HUMAN CONDITION IS ONE OF FRAILTY TAKE ONE FROM THE TOP WATCH THEM FALL APART THIS MALICIOUS INTENT YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE SELFISHNESS IS NOT THE ANSWER LIES WON'T GET YOU ANYWHERE I HAVE BOWED DOWN LONG ENOUGH WHY HAVE I ALLOWED THIS TO BE? WHAT IS IT THAT'S STOPPING ME? YOUR EXISTENCE IS PITIFUL I WILL STOMP YOUR ASS INTO THE GROUND TIL THERE NOTHING LEFT OF YOU YOU ARE NOT FREE FROM CONSEQUENCE NOW IT'S TIME YOU PAID FEEL MY WRATH FEEL MY PAIN YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE IN FEAR OF ALL THAT IS STRANGE YOU'RE HATE WILL KILL YOU AND I AM THE BLADE I WILL GLADLY END YOU SO WE WILL BE FREE YOUR TEARS WILL SUSTAIN ME I AM YOUR DEATH
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SLEEP MY DEAR FOR TOMORROW WILL COME WHEN IT'S HERE YOU MAY FIND ALL IS LOST THEY WILL TAKE THE SMILE FROM YOUR LIPS DON'T FRET DEAR STAND UP TALL ON YOUR FEET I AM HERE AND TOGETHER WE WILL FIGHT THEY WILL SAY THAT WE ARE WRONG TO BE WHO ARE THEY THEY HAVE NOT TOUCHED YOUR SOUL WE ARE FREE LIFE IS WHAT YOU SAY IT IS THIS PATH IS NOT JUST OF FLESH WE ARE DIVINE BEINGS OUR TRUTHS WILL SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES WHAT IS THE USE IN HIDING? IF THIS ISN'T WHAT WE ARE THEN WHY WOULD WE RISK DYING? NOW OUR FINAL STAND IS HERE I WILL NOT FALL NOR WILL YOU
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IT'S TIME TO GET UP AND SEIZE THE DAY AND THOUGH I TRY TO I CAN'T SEEM TO MOVE THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING PUSHING ME ASTRAY IT'S MY TIME IT'S MY LIFE BUT NOT TODAY PEOPLE ARE EXPECTING FAR TOO MUCH FROM ME WHAT THEY WANT WHAT THEY'LL GET AND I AM EMPTY THIS RAGE INSIDE ONLY HURTS ME WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN EVERYTHING G BECOMES TOO MUCH WHEN BREATHING TAKES A TOLL ON ME? SUFFOCATE? THE ONLY REASON I'M ALIVE IS THE CONSTANT FEAR OF PAIN BUT IF EVERYTHING STILL HURTS WHAT'S THE POINT? IF YOU CAN HEAR ME SOMEWHERE OUT THERE PLEASE DON'T GO PLEASE DON'T GO (SAVE ME OR END ME) IF YOU CAN HEAR ME SOMEWHERE OUT THERE PLEASE DON'T GO PLEASE DON'T GO (SAVE ME OR END ME) IF I EVER PUSH YOU AWAY IT'S ONLY A SYMPTOM ONLY A SYMPTOM (SAVE ME OR END ME) IF MY STRENGTH SHALL EVER FAIL ME IT'S OKAY, IT'S OKAY (SAVE ME OR END ME) IF I DON'T MAKE IT TO THE END PLEASE KNOW I TRIED KNOW I TRIED UNTIL MY END

about

One of the most compelling, genre-bending duos, Jotunn (featuring members of Imbroglio and Gainsayer), have returned with their new album, entitled Macaria. Released independently and out now via digital download, the six new tracks that comprise Jotunn’s sophomore release traverse blackened death metal, doom and sludge, while exploring some unconventional and progressive elements. The end result is crushingly heavy and viscerally intense, yet hauntingly captivating and brooding.

Dayton, OH's Jotunn features the core duo of Freya Reeves (vocals, bass) and Darrell J. Gilbert Jr. (guitar, backing vocals, programming). The follow-up to their debut, Huldra, refines their approach, distilling the most potent aspects of their sound. The album maintains all of the aggressive and abrasive tones of the previous release while introducing more melodic components and diverse experimental dynamics. Reeves comments, “Our riffs have become more complex and melodic, evoking more emotion than the previous. I have also worked on a larger vocal range, seeking to find out what my voice is capable of.”

For Macaria, both the writing and recording process came together organically, resulting in an incredibly raw album that captures the openness and sincerity of Jotunn. Reeves explains, “A lot of what we do is in the moment... Recording is unpredictable. Even if I have an idea in mind, once the record button is clicked, I won't truly know what will come out.” Gilbert elaborates, “We had beautiful moments, and memories during the recording of the vocals that I will never forget. Especially on the closing track where Freya allowed me to do the vocals I envisioned for them. It really ties both of our personalities together and our love of friendship for one another to be there in those moments together. It was really awesome. Couldn't be more proud of her for that.”

Lyrically, Macaria is a glimpse into Reeves' life as a trans woman, offering up her personal perspective in an extremely powerful, thought-provoking way. She says, “This album captured the frustration of living as a trans woman in a society that not only doesn't want me, but actively seeks to eliminate me.” Gilbert comments, “Freya's message overall I believe anyone can relate to. Each song kinda has it's own meaning on this effort. It's just so honest, sincere, and to the core vulnerable on every level that you can be in this kind of music.”

Gilbert elaborates on Jotunn's empowering overall concept, “We talk about very uncomfortable topics that shouldn't be uncomfortable... I want this album to feel like a shield for anyone who leads an alternative lifestyle that can be frowned upon in society. The topics that we cover very much need to be more in the light so more people can understand that they aren't alone, that we are out here, and the music will always be here for them to understand them for exactly who they are.” Reeves says, “For me, it's saying to the world, I am who I am, and I am human. Transgender people just want to live our lives in peace. I've spent my life hiding in fear of what others might think or do if I allowed my true self to flourish, and I, along with many others, are tired of it. We have our place in the world, and it's time that we claim it.”

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released February 23, 2024

JOTUNN -

Freya Reeves - 5 String Bass, Vocals, Lyrics, Conceptual Visionary, & Co-Songwriter.

Darrell J. Gilbert Jr. - 7 String Guitar, Backing Vocals, Lyrical Contributions, Sound Design, Keys, Programming, Sequencing, & Co-Songwriter.

All music was written, and performed by JOTUNN.

Recorded, Produced, Engineered, Mixed, & Mastered by Darrell J. Gilbert Jr. @ MIDIAN - APS from 2022 to 2024.

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Jotunn Dayton, Ohio

JOTUNN is -

Freya Reeves - 5 String Bass, Vocals, Lyrics, Conceptual Visionary, & Co- Songwriter.

Darrell J. Gilbert Jr. - 7 String Guitar, Backing Vocals, Lyrical Contributions, Sound Design, Keys, Programming & Sequencing, & Co-Songwriter.

Featuring members of Imbroglio, & Gainsayer.
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